Monday, November 20, 2006 12:14 AM
My blogging pattern is irregular. I have a bloggers' block now. How am I supposed to un-blocked it? Should I call a plumber to unblock it? Should I eat more vegetables and fruits so that I will have more dietary fibres and that my bowel movements would be more regular and thus, be un-blocked.
Being someone who prefers writing to talking, I am actually quite puzzled at my own ambitions. Since the beginnning of time, I have already had about four ambitions. God knows why I am so fickle-minded. I just canot make up my mind!
Ambition number one: Scientist. I wanted to be a scientist when I was frist introduced into the great mysteries of Science. I was really fascinated by the subject then and that I was quite talented in that area then. Quickly, I fell in love with the subject. Being young and childish, I thought that Science must be my life. So I decided to be a scientist. Well, it was not a bad choice for scientists earn quite some money.
However, as I grew, I turned wiser (I guess). I started to think in a very selfish way. So many things have been discovered by other great scientists like Einstein and Newton. Now, the things left to discovered are so complicated and that if I want to have my big break in my Science career, I guess it would be pertually impossible. I guess that was a very self-centered thought of mine then. So I moved on to my next ambition.
Ambition number two: Actor. I wanted to be an actor when I was young. I guess I was fascinated by the people in the square box sitting in my living room. When I was young, I would sit in front of the television gazing at it. I would also think to myself, "How fun it will be to be in that box one day." I guess that I, like many other peopel, are overwhelmed by the fact that actors are famous and people like to be famous. I so so mad then!
I guess my mind was made up then. When my tuition teacher asked us to write a composition entitled "My Ambition", I wrote about me wanting to be an actor. I guess it was pure luck then for the tuition teacher was the sister of someone in Mediacorp and some days later, I was casted to act as the grandchild of a witch. That was my first show - somethign about witches. I guess I was kind of hooked onto acting and I made it into my amibition. For goodness sake! I was only eight then!
Acting soon became tiring for me. Though I still like them, I decided that I should take a rest and concentrate on my studies. So I went full-fledged into studying. To my surprise, and to many other's, I actually do love studying. I fell in love with language and i started to write down everything that came into my life. I guess I was kind of inspired by the books written by Sue Townsend about Adrian Mole. The more I write, the more I fell in love with writing.
Ambition number three: Author. To think that I actually wanted to be an author. I guess I was not really thinking properly then. To be an author, you have to be really well-versed in your languages. You have to be able to write down the dictionary from the back of your head. Synomons of words have to be at the tip of your fingertips. I verntured into writing for some time and I thought that well, I like that!
However, before I confirmed that writing is my cup of tea, another selfish thought came into my mind. Being an author means that you have to churn out quality books like how chickens lay eggs. You have to be really good to be famous and rich. So, I thought, well, am I good enough? The answer was no. So becoming an author became a definate NO for me. However, I am still indulging in some good writing here and then though.
Ambition number Four: Teacher. I guess I am inspired by the teachers all around me. I must say, I have been really good-fortuned to have met many inspiring teachers in my education road. One of the most obvious teacher was my primary school English Teacher Miss Foong. She pulled my English grade from a C to an A. I want to be a teacher when I grow up. I want to feel the satisfaction teachers get when they manage to perform a miracle on a student. I want to feel the fustration the teachers undergo when they meet with a problem student.
I guess for now, I am still stuck with the ambition of being a teacher. Come to think of it. to be a teacher, you have to be really good in two subjects. Maths is totally ruled out. What can I do? I guess perhaps Sciences. I really like Theatre Studies (Drama) but alas, there are not many schools doing theatre studies now andI dno't know whether all schools will get theatre studies when I grow up. If the answer is no, I guess I will start up a company and start to roam around the island teaching people about Drama.
Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious
